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願い: Stupid stupid stupid! Thursday, 6 February 2014 | 0 comment[s] God damn it... I read something I shouldn't have and now... My heart just aches all over again... A stabbing pain is causing me on the verge of the tears. It just hurts so god damn bad... It doesn't help... That I went onto ask.fm to procrastinate... Only to see this message from Davison... which hurt even more. I'm really starting to hate myself even more than I usually do. If I wasn't so stupid... I wouldn't have lied to him, to hide my jealousy in the first place. If I hadn't lied to him, I wouldn't have lost his trust. If I hadn't been so god damn stupid, I wouldn't have caused him so much pain... Why... Am I such an idiot...? School was the same... Meetings for both breaks so I didn't do much.. Haha. Found a long af random cut on my right hand during Maths A. Told Nina if Davison actually went to our school, he'd probably tell me off because of this cut or something like that. Haha. The cut either starts or ends at my knuckle and my wrist so yeah. Haha. A bit long. Wonder if I'm going to get two scars on this hand now. haha. But either way... Vivian Tram-Nguyen, you are one fucking idiot. Full stop. |
