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Sooo... I was pretty much sad the whole day. Haha. Was kind of really quiet too. Haha. Critical Thinking program, I guess it was the best lesson so far. Haha. Might be because I tried not to make it seem depressing haha... hen it was achademy, yeah. I spoke just so that people wouldn't get suspicious. Especially Suzanne and the teacher. Haha. Stayed in the library and just read. Haha. Didn't feel like eating so I just read until break was over.

Science was alright. Forgot my stuff but meh. haha. Jordan was kind enough to let me borrow some things for the lesson since we sit beside each other because of the seating plan. After class, since I didn't want to get into trouble for not eating my lunch I just blankly at some biscuits. Haha.

AMS.... Was one of the lessons where I somewhat revealed my mood. haha. Was so obvious since I used my laptop to talk. Haha. Friend noticed something wrong with my laptop and it turned out, that it was broken on the side. Well then. That's nice. Haha. 

Class ended, went to the I.T guys and they said they'd fix it in a day so but since it was Friday, I told them I'd bring it in on Monday. Haha. Once again forced myself to eat so that I didn't get into trouble haha. But... During this break... I actually tried to be happy. haha. Went into the old hall where it was only meant to be grade eights and nines. I somehow got dragged inside haha. It got my mind off things for a bit but yeah... By the end break, the mood came back. Haha. That just... dull, sad feeling came back haha. 

English was the final lesson that I actually let my feelings show. Ha, my seatmate noticed it since I wasn't talking and I wasn't as lively as usual I guess. Haha, since I wasn't annoying her and poking her as usual. Honestly just wanted to sleep or cry then but meh haha. Might also be because I'd sometimes slap my pens onto my desk or something haha. Sigh. So upsetting.

After school, since mum was picking me up, I put up the facade of being happy. Haha. I guess to make it convincing, I took out my orange and tried mucking around with her that I couldn't eat it properly. Haha. It was convincing I guess. Haha. 

Then we went to Inala. Since we were in a public place, another facade. Just sigh. So sad. I'm just giving myself more sadness since putting up a facade hurts. A lot. With those fake smiles. I couldn't even smile in the morning... It just hurt so much. Haha.

Oh right, I think... People misinterpreted that little 'hate' message. Haha. That message was from me, to me. I hated myself then. Haha. I guess... I'm just really weak now.. Urk..

I'm... just going to stop before I get depressed even more... Haha.. Why am I such a weakling...?
P.S: New story. Posted yesterday but yeaaaahhh... haha...

Sooo... I was pretty much sad the whole day. Haha. Was kind of really quiet too. Haha. Critical Thinking program, I guess it was the best lesson so far. Haha. Might be because I tried not to make it seem depressing haha... hen it was achademy, yeah. I spoke just so that people wouldn't get suspicious. Especially Suzanne and the teacher. Haha. Stayed in the library and just read. Haha. Didn't feel like eating so I just read until break was over.

Science was alright. Forgot my stuff but meh. haha. Jordan was kind enough to let me borrow some things for the lesson since we sit beside each other because of the seating plan. After class, since I didn't want to get into trouble for not eating my lunch I just blankly at some biscuits. Haha.

AMS.... Was one of the lessons where I somewhat revealed my mood. haha. Was so obvious since I used my laptop to talk. Haha. Friend noticed something wrong with my laptop and it turned out, that it was broken on the side. Well then. That's nice. Haha. 

Class ended, went to the I.T guys and they said they'd fix it in a day so but since it was Friday, I told them I'd bring it in on Monday. Haha. Once again forced myself to eat so that I didn't get into trouble haha. But... During this break... I actually tried to be happy. haha. Went into the old hall where it was only meant to be grade eights and nines. I somehow got dragged inside haha. It got my mind off things for a bit but yeah... By the end break, the mood came back. Haha. That just... dull, sad feeling came back haha. 

English was the final lesson that I actually let my feelings show. Ha, my seatmate noticed it since I wasn't talking and I wasn't as lively as usual I guess. Haha, since I wasn't annoying her and poking her as usual. Honestly just wanted to sleep or cry then but meh haha. Might also be because I'd sometimes slap my pens onto my desk or something haha. Sigh. So upsetting.

After school, since mum was picking me up, I put up the facade of being happy. Haha. I guess to make it convincing, I took out my orange and tried mucking around with her that I couldn't eat it properly. Haha. It was convincing I guess. Haha. 

Then we went to Inala. Since we were in a public place, another facade. Just sigh. So sad. I'm just giving myself more sadness since putting up a facade hurts. A lot. With those fake smiles. I couldn't even smile in the morning... It just hurt so much. Haha.

Oh right, I think... People misinterpreted that little 'hate' message. Haha. That message was from me, to me. I hated myself then. Haha. I guess... I'm just really weak now.. Urk..

I'm... just going to stop before I get depressed even more... Haha.. Why am I such a weakling...?
P.S: New story. Posted yesterday but yeaaaahhh... haha...