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春：Usotsuki Thursday, 5 September 2013 | 0 comment[s] Hmm, Thursday. Welp, I found out that I failed my first maths exam. Lmfao. Finished twenty minutes in, didn't check, bam. Failed. Meh, I think I found a trend because of that though. Since I got bored, somewhere near the last ten minutes of the exam, I just made cranes right? I did the same thing for my Japanese reading exam last term but I think it was with stars and I got a B for that, killing my straight A streak. Haha. So basically, if I make origami during a lesson, I'm going to do badly on it. Haha, oh wells. At least I didn't do it for my second maths exam. Haha. Meh. There was a Japanese exam as well and everyone just.. left on the dot at 2:50. Haha. Was because there was someone outside doing there speaking exam and we're just like, meeeehhhh. So we just all left silently. Haha. Well, at the beginning of that lesson... Yen... looked really down. I asked her, if she was okay. She said she was. But yeah, I knew something was up but I didn't say anything. The way she answered.. was a give away. Because really... I'm similar to her in a sense. Haha. I've been what she's been through, well some of it, and when I found out that she really wasn't okay via her blog... BECAUSE SHE KNEW I WAS GOING TO READ IT (how nice of you Yen, you liar.), I wanted to help... 'Cause she was there, when I was in pain. Haha. Might be because it was obvious as hell since I was crying at the time but yeah. Haha. Meep; let's say. It's hurting the one we love. I really know how it feels, when things like that happens. I still remember.. The first time Davison and I fought.. The second time we did.. The one where he wanted to end it with me but didn't... Then the argument that actually did end it... But we did get back together afterwards, haha. The one where he wouldn't even talk to me for the whole day... That one, and the first one, will always hurt the most. Always. Even now, it freaking brings me to tears. haha. Yeah... I'll admit, I'm getting teary right now because I feel as though.. There's a tear in my chest.. A wound, that's starting to reopen. 'Cause it just hurts so god damn much.. But luckily for her... Luckily for Yen... Her boyfriend goes to the same school.. She gets to be with her boyfriend... Yeah, I'm envious. I envy her, I envy every couple there is, that are together physically. Every single time that I see a couple... I can't help but imagine... Can't help but imagine that it's Davison and I, can't help but make myself in a temporary blissful state. I just... Want him to be with me.. But yeah.. Nothing else really happened as always. It's quite uneventful I guess. Haha. Parents took family out to eat again.. And for that whole day.. I couldn't talk to Davison. haha. A second time.. Where I couldn't even talk to him. Haha. Sigh, lonely day. Really lonely indeed. :/ Welp, nothing else to say so... Yeah... "Let the refining and improving of your own life keep you busy so at you have little time to criticize others." - H. Jackson Brown, Jr. |
