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春: Soon Monday, 16 September 2013 | 0 comment[s] Soon. Very, very soon. Something will change. May it be for the better or for the worse. You can decide. I might change, something else might change, may it be the weather, may it be someone else - something or someone will change. Haha, probably me. Who knows. Welp. I don't know anymore. Davison and I... We're officially over... For the whole day today, I've kept up a facade. I've been trying to be happy, smiling. Trying to forget the pain in my chest. Trying to forget how bare my neck actually felt. Just, trying to not let anyone notice the pain I'm in. Lucky for me, no one noticed except for the people who read my blog or the ones who know my situation. Just keeping my pain inside, bottling it up. To be honest, last night, I ended up crying myself to sleep. Haha. I then woke up at like, four and just cried. I think I stayed awake for a hour or so before actually being able to sleep again. I probably might do it again or something like that. Haha. Who knows... I have been trying not to cry the whole day so yeah. Hmm, what else happened. English, we ran out of time but there were quite amusing and entertaining plays. Like, there was this one play performed by international Vietnamese students, and god damn. Their accents are hilarious. LOL. It was really amusing. But, I kind of feel bad because since their accent makes it just a bit too hard for the others to understand it. There was another one where these two guys were putting in a whole load of references. For example, there was a pokemon reference, there was a dragon ball, a star wars, according to the teacher there was also a spider man and this other one. Haha. I think they tried to put in Karate Kid as well or something, not sure. But like, they just tried to put in a lot of references. HOWEVER, the bad thing for them is that. They just kept on laughing throughout the whole play. I think one of them got a C- on something, I think it was because they kept on laughing or something like that. Haha. Other than that, the rest of the day was pretty much.. Average I guess. Haha. Spent like, seven hours. Trying to find a good blog theme/template, fixing it, looking for music that for SOME REASON, DOESN'T WORK. :C But yeah, because of that, I was moving around quite a lot and... as bad as it is, (since Suzanne would probably kill me for doing this) I couldn't talk to Davison. He had a really worrying status and I asked him "What's wrong?" Turns out he was sleeping or something since he didn't reply until a hour later. But yeah, I was going to ask him again but since I was moving around quite a lot, I couldn't. And this was what he sent to me, before my parents cut the net. "Well since I'm prob not going to be able to talk you anymore, have a good life." Good life huh? I won't be having one for a long time. Most likely.. I'm going to make myself miserable just so that parents are happy. Sigh. If... Only things were different... "The question isn't who is going to let m; it's who is going to stop me." - Ayn Rand. |
