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春: Friday 13 Friday, 13 September 2013 | 0 comment[s] Once again.. I got this churning in my stomach... And I realised... This time... The cause of Davison's mood was... me... I was the reason why... He stopped being happy... The reason why he's pissed... I was tired and stressed that I didn't want to hurt him anyway... So I just.... Shut up... And that... I think.. Ended up hurting him.. I feel so god damn worthless because every time I do.. He ignores me.. And when he does that... I want to fix it... I want to cheer him up.. But I can't do anything... And it's hurting me, because the fact that I hurt him... Just pretty much kills me in the inside... He says... That I actually do "deserve" him... I don't. I swear to god, I don't. All I do, is cause him pain, all I do is hurt him. It's killing me. It might be because it's Friday 13 but... I honestly think... It's just because I'm a stupid person. Somehow... Deep inside of me, I knew this was going to hurt him, I knew something was going to happen... But.. I still did it anyways... And now, we're both suffering from it.. I hurt him and myself, just... Fuck man... I'm so... worthless... Excluding that, today was... okay... I guess... Academy, teacher ended up teaching us physics to get ready for my exam that's on Monday.. Science and AMS was the same.. English I finished the script for the play.. Urgh, fuck this. I'm just... Going to work on my music assignment and pretty much feel worthless, a piece of shit for the rest of the night. Since it's pretty much evident... I won't be talking to him again for the night. Yup, I'm just a useless piece of shit. Either to fake smiling or feel sorry for myself tomorrow and be upset... I'll... Probably do both... Sigh... Honestly... Want to cry... Haha... Once again... no quote since there's no reason why... |
