After so many years, so many years of love. My parents finally have a go at each other. Crying, trying to get through all of this, trying to stop my dad from going off at my siblings, trying to stop thinking so negatively. But yeah, none of that is working.

Dad comes home drunk, and like, he goes off at my mum for not picking him up since he had to walk home from this party. Then this whole argument breaks out… I was showering… so I didn’t know what was happening… But when I heard my dad going off at one of my siblings… I got pissed off so much.. I just wanted to go outside and swear at dad, tell him off. “I know you care for us, I know that you’re my dad, but that doesn’t give you the fucking right to go off at us. To go off at either of us. Just go to fucking sleep already.” But yeah, by the time I got out, mum was going off at him so I stood with a singlet, watching it happen. And then dad directs it to me, telling me to tell my mum something. Probably got sick since I didn’t dry my hair. Haha. Oh wells. Even though I just got over my sickness about five days ago… Meh. Then I went to my siblings since sister just came out of her shower (she was the one who got told off at) and she went into her room with little brother. I went in there, soon afterwards, dad came in when I was going out and started yelling at sister. I went back inside and started patting sister on the back since she was crying all over again. Mum came in and started dragging dad out. A fight almost broke out but aunt held dad back and I held mum back. Haha. Then all of this shit happened soon afterwards. I don’t want to think about them anymore. I’m tired, hurt. Punched the wall twice so now my right fist also hurts. Haha. Just got over crying as well thanks to Davison. He got me smiling and laughing again. If it really weren’t for him, I’d still be crying right now. Still trying to get over the fact that now.. there’s a big chance for this family to fall apart. Urgh. Even though it seems as though half the time I’m angry at my parents, I really do care for them. I don’t want this family to fall apart. Haha.

Yeah, mum’s telling me to sleep but I can’t exactly sleep with this shit going on. Don’t know what happened to dad since he’s outside and I don’t want him near me right now so yeah. Haha. I’m just going to go wash my face. Eyes sting so yeah. Haha. Just realised, I haven’t eaten anything for the whole day. Breakfast, was just up and go, lunch was just a sausage sizzle and a Fanta (I actually felt full because of the Fanta. Urgh, been so long since I’ve drank soft drink so that might be why, haha) and I’m skipping dinner because of all this. Woooo, probably going to be hungry in the morning since my stomach’s aching right now but meh. Haha. Screw it.

“Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.” - Martin Luther King Jr.

After so many years, so many years of love. My parents finally have a go at each other. Crying, trying to get through all of this, trying to stop my dad from going off at my siblings, trying to stop thinking so negatively. But yeah, none of that is working.

Dad comes home drunk, and like, he goes off at my mum for not picking him up since he had to walk home from this party. Then this whole argument breaks out… I was showering… so I didn’t know what was happening… But when I heard my dad going off at one of my siblings… I got pissed off so much.. I just wanted to go outside and swear at dad, tell him off. “I know you care for us, I know that you’re my dad, but that doesn’t give you the fucking right to go off at us. To go off at either of us. Just go to fucking sleep already.” But yeah, by the time I got out, mum was going off at him so I stood with a singlet, watching it happen. And then dad directs it to me, telling me to tell my mum something. Probably got sick since I didn’t dry my hair. Haha. Oh wells. Even though I just got over my sickness about five days ago… Meh. Then I went to my siblings since sister just came out of her shower (she was the one who got told off at) and she went into her room with little brother. I went in there, soon afterwards, dad came in when I was going out and started yelling at sister. I went back inside and started patting sister on the back since she was crying all over again. Mum came in and started dragging dad out. A fight almost broke out but aunt held dad back and I held mum back. Haha. Then all of this shit happened soon afterwards. I don’t want to think about them anymore. I’m tired, hurt. Punched the wall twice so now my right fist also hurts. Haha. Just got over crying as well thanks to Davison. He got me smiling and laughing again. If it really weren’t for him, I’d still be crying right now. Still trying to get over the fact that now.. there’s a big chance for this family to fall apart. Urgh. Even though it seems as though half the time I’m angry at my parents, I really do care for them. I don’t want this family to fall apart. Haha.

Yeah, mum’s telling me to sleep but I can’t exactly sleep with this shit going on. Don’t know what happened to dad since he’s outside and I don’t want him near me right now so yeah. Haha. I’m just going to go wash my face. Eyes sting so yeah. Haha. Just realised, I haven’t eaten anything for the whole day. Breakfast, was just up and go, lunch was just a sausage sizzle and a Fanta (I actually felt full because of the Fanta. Urgh, been so long since I’ve drank soft drink so that might be why, haha) and I’m skipping dinner because of all this. Woooo, probably going to be hungry in the morning since my stomach’s aching right now but meh. Haha. Screw it.

“Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.” - Martin Luther King Jr.