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冬: Thoughts Wednesday, 28 August 2013 | 0 comment[s] Hmm, it's funny how thoughts can totally kill yourself. Lmfao, I couldn't even sleep properly. Woke up like, three or four times in the night. I ended up dreaming about Davison like, two times in the night. Had these really bad thoughts in my head so yeah... I couldn't exactly do anything. haha. Was eating, but then the thoughts came back and I just couldn't eat. I felt so crap since there was this churning in my stomach in a way. Haha. To be honest, I was actually typing this during school since I just needed to get it off my chest. But ever since my laptop has been having this thing where it would suddenly turn off, so when I was typing this on my word document, it disappeared. Haha. I just really hate making him angry, upset, or anything negative really. Because it hurts like hell, knowing that I'm the reason behind it. God damn it. Sigh. But I felt so much better, when I got the internet back. Because Davison... Surprised me. Haha. I honestly wasn't expecting him to apologise at all. Like, it wasn't even his fault but it made me feel special to be honest. hehe. Though, the things that he said made me so worried, haha. I honestly want to be with him again. I just miss him so much. Haha. During class today, for maths, everyone was stuck on the like, first to third questions. I think that was because they were doing every second within the question so yeah. But then again, I think it was because the answers at the back of the book was so incorrect, like. All the answers were in the wrong spot and such. I don't even know how or why they even published it. LOL. Like, why would they publish the book when the answers are incorrect? Basically, half of the answers of the first question was mixed around. Like, the answer for question c was for question d for example. Yeah, I don't even know how they did it. What else happened. Hmm. Well, before school, my cheeks got killed. I was dragged around before class by Kim and I ended up going to Suzanne's class, where she killed my face. HAHAHA. Ended up rubbing my cheeks everywhere. Was because she ended up finding out what happened to me yesterday before I even posted the post. Haha. I think, it was because on of my friends saw me like that and told her so yeah. She ended up trying to get it out of me but, luckily for meeee, class was already starting, so I got away. haha. Reminds me, during second lunch where I was with a couple of friends, well, just three singers who were practicing for Multicultural Day (actually, it was only two, one of them was just mucking around in a way). Like, we were discussing what they could do while they were performing and such. We ended up talking and giving each other some of the strangest ideas ever. LOLOL. Like, since at school there's this wall like thing and they cut this pathway so that it was easier for people to go around the school. LOLOL. So, since one's rapping (it's like a feature in a way) while the other is singing the main song, we were trying to figure out how the rapper could appear on stage in a way. Like, if she could come out of no where or something like that. Haha. It was so funny, because we made up some of the strangest scenario ever and I just burst out laughing. It was so god damn funny. LIKE, she was saying just for the lols, she should just enter the stage making sounds like a siren or something. LMFAO. I can't exactly explain it, but I wa slaughing so much that I apparently turned pink or something. LOL. Ah, it was so fun. Welp, mum's been staring at me for the past 15 minutes. Haha. Like, I don't even know why. Earlier, I was sitting in front of the door, with my back facing the door but then she came in while I began blogging. And because of that, I felt so self conscious. because she reads what I type. Every time when she comes by, I always stop talking to Davison, because she always reads my conversation with him. And because of that, I just feel as though I have no privacy whatsoever. Reminds me of the time when I was talking to Mr Cullen. Haha, I wonder... If he actually did make that call or not. If he did, I should probably tell him that I've been blogging again and that she's been reading my things since.... He's saying that I should get my own privacy and all of that. Haha. Welp, hopefully I do get that. And yeah, a minute left so... I'm just going to go find that quote. I have quite a useful site to find quotes really. Quite inspirational really. Haha. Then again.. That's what it was called. Haha. "The way to get started is to quit talking and begin doing." - Walt Disney. |
