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â‚° No More Saturday, 3 August 2013 | 0 comment[s] Okay please, no more. I've had enough. Can't stand it. My parents... Keep on making my cry. At freaking ten or eleven at night, I cried for whole knows how long before actually crying myself to sleep. Since mum turned off the net, saying that she let me talk to Davison for the minute I came home until nine - the time where she turned off the net. But the thing is, I came home at five and Davison slept from six to eight. So basically, I only had like three hours to get to talk to him. So when I turned on the net again and used it for about two hours, I got caught. By mum. Haha. She found out that I turned it back on, both my parents came into my room. Dad took the kindle, mum had it and then smashed it onto the table. Haha. Probably broken knowing her. There goes two out of my three links to Davison... Then dad went off at me, and told me that I should forget about him and that I should just focus on studies. That, was when I started crying. That fucking hurt so freaking much. I can't forget about him, he's always on my mind. Fucking cried so much. Mum came in and started lecturing me, saying that if his love was true... Then he should come here. That hurt. Later on, dad comes back in tells me off for crying. That I had no right to be crying. That my mum has been crying "for me" every single night. Yes, I felt bad then but the pain I had in my chest hurt even more. I just kept on crying until I finally cried myself to sleep. Then today, went to school with puffy eyes. Didn't bother talking until after break. Cried for a bit before school after punching the wall. Haha. Was pissed and still hurt. I was fucking depressed. Haha. Probably killed my knuckles again after a year of no punching things... Sorry Davison, for hurting myself. Haha After school, went to friend's place to start on our Ekka bridges, and I felt bad because I was using her laptop to talk to Davison and I was supposed to do our proposal for our assignment but... I didn't do anything.. At all. There's no one to blame but myself since I don't exactly listen to them when they explain it to the teacher at school, and that I should've asked. Haha. Sigh. Oh wells... I just hope friend finishes it in time. I seriously.. Need to make it up to them for being a useless member. Haha. Sigh. Because everything feels as though they're against you. |
