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â‚° Hurt Friday, 26 July 2013 | 0 comment[s] So... Last night... I did something I really regret... I told Davison something I wish I didn't... Because now, he's pissed off and it's my fault. Tried talking to him in the morning... Told me to leave him alone... That hurt. Two hours later... I tried talking to him again.. Said "What do you want?" and that hurt so freaking much. Still not even talking to him, and it's been like, seven hours. I've never... Been this long without talking to him... And it still hurts, if not more. I cried four times. Once before school started, before AMS class, broke down during second lunch and once again at home. Away from family. Every time... I think about it, I cry. It hurts so fucking bad... I wasn't in the mood for anything... I didn't want to do anything.. I just wanted to go somewhere... and just fucking cry myself out. And... I got him to talk to me for six minutes... For the first time... Ever since we met... We barely don't talk to each other... And this is causing me so much pain.. I give up on holding back my tears. I'm breaking down. The pain in my chest is aching too much. I was okay with it, the small ache which is the results from having a long-distant relationship but not talking to him this much... Just hurts even more. I'm sorry. I'll go cry somewhere else. I should just stop... Love is the biggest joy... yet it's one of the things that hurt the most... |
