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â‚° Draft, Life, Promise Monday, 20 May 2013 | 0 comment[s] Just, wow. I got my draft and all, but I've been too lazy to do anything... I also found out that I had to restart - so I pretty much have to restart the whole assignment again. but the thing is, now that I have re-do this, I honestly don't know what to write anymore.It's just a bit frustrating and a tad hurtful since I spent so much time on that, and then. Just, poof. Time wasted. Hah, I spent like, two lessons on that? A hundred and forty hours of my life, wasted pretty much. Haha, oh wells.
And now, I seriously don't know what to do anymore. That friend who I care so deeply for, has apparently given on life... I'm trying to cheer them up, to persuade them not to, to help them become happier. Haha, even if I have to stay up, I'm not going to hurt them and leave them again. I would've actually stayed up until late, like, past three? or so to cheer them up. Haha, it was also so hard to persuade them since I didn't want to lecture them either. I didn't want to sound like a mother in a way so yeah. Haha. It really hurts, to see someone so close to me wanting to end their life. It hurt, so much, knowing that. And yeah, to be honest, that was one of the reason why I couldn't sleep. I couldn't sleep knowing that they were so negative. I just couldn't, and I wouldn't, even if my eyes started to hurt. I just couldn't leave them in that state. Haha, I ended up talking about a bit of my past, where my friend back stabbed for me, (Yeah, the one who was my ex-best-friend) and didn't stood up for me, even though one of the people who were back stabbing me was her childhood friend. Haha, I got teary, thinking and talking about it just for that one instance. Haha. Oh wells, I just hope... I just hope that their life will be better... I want them to have a better life, they've already had so many hardships, even as a child. I just want them to be happier, and smiling. I don't want them to be like me, even though their life is so much worse than mine. I just want them to be happier, smiling truthfully, instead of having to fake those smiles and laughter. I just... I just want to be there for them, even it ruins my health. Rash, I know. But I'm willing to do that, for someone who was willing to put up with my rants, long before I got even to know them better. Yeah, they were there for me, when I was breaking down. They put up with me rants, my complaints, my whining, long before I even began to know them. So, I want to be there for them. Haha.
ALRIGHT. It's one thirty in the morning. o.o Lmfao, yeah. I stayed up quite late for them. But in the end, they fell asleep. So hopefully, they'll feel a bit better after waking up, just a tiny bit would be fine. Haha. Kindle kind of died though, in the moment I was trying to persuade them... Kind of pissed me off a bit so I just dropped it to one side of the bed before moving it to the other corner since it could have dropped and broke if I didn't. That's why, I went onto my phone, even if my parents were against it. Haha, I still went on my phone, just to stay with them. I did promise them after all... Haha. I keep my promises, and this one, I WILL keep, even if I get into trouble for it. Haha, Especially there was a chance of me getting caught since both parents were still awake. Haha, oh wells. Meh, I'm going to sleep now. Goodnight all.
Even if it's just a small thing, someone's day could be made because of it.
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