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â‚° Day Thirty Eight [II] Friday, 22 March 2013 | 0 comment[s] You say you gave me everything I wanted. Everything I wanted huh? I wanted my freedom but no. I don't get that. You complain that you only want one thing from me, to go to sleep early. But really? ONE thing from me? Have you ever thought, that telling me who to befriend, what I wear, what I actually do, don't you consider that as more than one thing? You act as though, you know everything that happens in my life, especially because we're both females. Do you know how frustrating it is for me? I'm trying to study, I'm going through all this stress just to make you happy with my grades, to please you. And then, you throw it back at me, telling me to go to sleep, telling me to quit school if I wanted, lecturing me altogether. Why. Why do I bother trying to please you when all you do is lecture me? Sure, I'd love to quit Vietnamese school but no. You don't let me. Claiming that I'll become stupid if I do. Six days ago when I was being dropped off by my dad, he complains how we're not learning and wasting their money. And them he goes on about how smart we would look for being born in Australia but being able to speak Vietnamese so well. To me, all that means is that it would make him look better. I'm tired. I'm sick of all of this. I just want to do the things I want already. If you're so against me, why don't you just disown me already, you've already threatened me twice. Third time's the charm, why don't you just do it?
Sorry, it's another ranting and depressing post. To Dennis, before you start skyping me if I'm okay. Yes, I am. I've gotten over it now. And before you start telling me that you're always there for me, Skype wasn't responding so yeah. Don't worry, you too Laan. I'm okay. And to everyone else reading this, wipe that frown off your faces. I'm okay. Just a bit mentally drained but I'm okay with a night's sleep.
But mainly, I'm better because of a really dear friend who stuck by me while I was ranting to this him. Thank you so much for being there for me when I needed some comfort. You don't know how appreciative I am because to be honest. It would've taken me a night to get over and then another night for rest. Haha. Oh wells. But yeah, thank you.
Natasha, thank you for tagging me into that thing of yours but I'll do it tomorrow, okay? But then again, I'm lazy when it comes to photos. HAHA! But yeah, I'll do it. And now, it is time for me to go to school. Hmm, bye.
There's always someone out there trying their best for you.
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