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æ„›: Regret Wednesday, 23 July 2014 | 0 comment[s] So... I've been hurting for two days... Been holding in my tears since Tuesday but I finally lost it today when I was talking to Annie about it haha. Was sitting in the sun since it was cold and then Annie came and sat in front of me. We talked and I ended up crying haha. I almost broke down but I held it back since it was in public haha. Davison was pissed about something, continuously swearing.. And then guess what I did? I told him to calm down. I fucking regret that so much because after thinking about it... It was pretty much equivalent to me telling him to 'shut up'... and when I realised that.. I instantly regretted it so much... He won't even talk to me anymore... And to make matter worse, it's his birthday tomorrow. So I'm pretty much in so much pain, trying not to cry and trying to make it up to him... Except he doesn't reply... Haha. I tried talking to him on Tuesday but he didn't reply but he did 'see' my messages... Haha. I guess he wanted to be alone so I left him alone... but today.. I'm trying to get him to talk to me because I really want to get on good terms with him before his birthday but it's so hard when he doesn't reply. I was going to spam text him today as well... but I didn't want to annoy him... I pretended to be happy for these past two days and it hurt like fuck. Today, you could just see me being alone haha. First break was when I was sitting in the sun, on the verge of breaking down. Second break... I was just walking around by myself haha. I wanted to cry somewhere but I couldn't.. Haha. If you're reading this Davison... I'm really sorry... Haha. I hope you do forgive me.. |
