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æ„›: Couple Blog Sunday, 22 June 2014 | 0 comment[s] Note: This originally was meant to be for Saturday, 21 June but since mum ended up turning off the internet on me (and made me feel as though our relationship as a mother-daughter just crumbled again which led me to end up crying in bed again...) this has bits and pieces of what happened on 22 June as well. haha. So I'm posting it as 22 June. So like, I am now following my friends' couple blog (where they post things as a couple) and I must say. It actually hurts quite a lot. :p The envy is strong. Haha. Seeing all those photos of them being together... My god it felt like my heart was splitting. The envy that they're able to do that is just so.. painful. Haha. Yay for me aye. Viet school was different I would say. We had our listening exam and then for the rest of the day was free time. I ended up reading all of my manga books and had nothing to do for the rest of the time. Sigh. I guess I was just being a nuisance to everyone going around everywhere. Lmfao. The rest of the day I just pretty much spent playing Aura Kingdom and talking to Davison. I levelled up about five times. Lmfao. Just slightly less than half of what the amount of times I level'ed up yesterday. Lols. Man, I was so lonely playing that game since I originally played it with Davison but he thought it was boring so he stopped. I admit, it's boring as well but there's nothing else for me to play since GMS is just not fun anymore. Haha. I guess nowadays... I'm feeling quite lonely. Haha. Yeah, I can talk to a couple of others but just talking to Davison is always the best. But nowadays, I guess I feel as though I'm annoying him. And I admit, I do feel neglected at times. Haha. I'm happy that he's laughing and everything but when it does happen I guess, I feel envy and slightly jealous. Haha. Envious of the people who are able to make him laugh and jealous 'cause they're the one who's making him laugh. Haha. I'm the worst. I'm so clingy that I worry that I'd annoyed him so much to the point that I'd lose him. I guess it just pains me that his skyping freely with others and having so much fun. There was a time when I could've webcam'ed with him but couldn't 'cause I only had about a hour or half a hour left and he said that I'm missing out on my chance. The day when I actually could, he said 'he was shy'. I said 'it was okay' but sometimes, I feel hurt about it. Sometimes, it makes me feel as though he doesn't want to webcam with me and it hurts a lot whenever the thought crosses my mind. Haha. Sometimes... I really am scared and worried that he'll end up leaving me for someone better. It just scares me so much and the thought of it happening just hurts so much as well. I'm just really becoming a wuss. I'm sorry. I guess I've been an emotional train wreck the past few days and I'm letting it all out now. Haha. I admit. I cried in the middle of typing this up and I'm tearing up again now. After going to the bathroom and washing my face. Haha. Sorry. 
I guess this has been me for the past few days.
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