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I don't know but nowadays, I guess I'm somewhat sensitive to having people distance themselves from me. I guess, I'm starting to become really lonely again. I used to be close with Mimi and Linh... And then I got replaced by someone else who I had a thing with. The "Vi/Vy" thing. Haha. Whenever we met, we'd say "Hi Vi" and just play around with our names but nowadays, it doesn't even happen anymore. Lonely. Again. And Mimi says she isn't becoming distant or anything - she doesn't even include me in her conversations nor does she say anything to me anymore. Honestly, there's no point for me to sit there anymore haha. To be honest, I don't belong anywhere anymore. I just feel so awkward... With everyone having their own group and I'm just.. There, alone. Haha. 

Then there was this girl. Kim. We used to be friends and all but after my incident after pretending to throw the ball at her and she started crying.. (I must admit, I felt like shit then.) She's started avoiding me now. If I go close to her, she would instantly move away. If I talk to her, she would walk off. I ask her something, she would instantly say something in a harsh tone. Haha. I guess.. I'll just leave her alone then..

Yen as well. I get that I hurt her feelings during Chemistry but I apologised... But now, I feel as though she's just throwing me off again. After all the things I did to help her understand it.. When I try to help her in other things like Maths B when Hieu's having trouble explaining it.. She just goes off at me "I'm talking to Hieu." So I guess... I'm just going to solely focus on my own work huh.. No more helping Yen in Chemistry nor Maths B or anything haha. There was this one time in English where she starts asking everyone around her for a sharpener.. But she doesn't ask me. Like, she asks the two behind me. My friend next to me. The two in front of me. But she doesn't ask me. When I'm next to her. I guess she must really dislike me haha. (And yes, I did have a sharpener. Since they ended up using mine when my friend in front of me asked for one.)

And then there was Annie and Suzanne. We were like, another trio... But I guess, I'm just one of those people who get thrown aside hey? Annie and Suzanne have gotten really close and I'm just left outside the circle. Haha. I get that Suzanne probably has something against me or dislikes me in a sense because on the day for my performance night Suzanne said "I can't wait for Ben's performance! Oh and yours to Vy." Yeah... You didn't have to mention mine as a last minute thing because yes. This is what happens to me. It makes it seem as though I'm just a second option, as always. Not exactly fun having that sort of feeling continuously.

But yeah... Other than that, after Vietnamese school, I went to my cousin's house since my parents went to go fishing. But since we didn't have internet, I just started catching up on some anime really. Fairy Tail, Kamigami no Asobi, Naruto Shippuden, No Game No Life... Love Live! Hunter X Hunter... Yeahhh. Had a few to catch up on. :p After that, I started watching this girly af anime and I guess my cousin got so annoyed since he was like "VY. STAPH PLS. STAPH NO GIRLY ANIMES." HAHAHAHA. Was entertaining. :p But then yeah, I moved from his room to his sister's since she usually watched it with me and yeah. Might as well.

Got home from cousins, went onto the computer and just started talking to Davison as usual. This guy really knows how to make me smile. :p But I guess I took his lack of response to "I want to webcam with you that is" a bit harshly because I started over thinking and it hurt. A lot. "What if he doesn't want to webcam with me?" "What if I'm annoying him?" "What if I'm just pestering him?" Yeah... All these thoughts just came flooding in and it hurt. And now, I feel bad af because I'm the reason as to why he's sad. I'm the reason as to why he's upset and that just hurts even more because I can't do anything about it. Another thing is that he saw my "Good morning" message as well, but doesn't say anything about it. Haha. I guess.. I really killed his mood tonight.. Haha...

I don't know but nowadays, I guess I'm somewhat sensitive to having people distance themselves from me. I guess, I'm starting to become really lonely again. I used to be close with Mimi and Linh... And then I got replaced by someone else who I had a thing with. The "Vi/Vy" thing. Haha. Whenever we met, we'd say "Hi Vi" and just play around with our names but nowadays, it doesn't even happen anymore. Lonely. Again. And Mimi says she isn't becoming distant or anything - she doesn't even include me in her conversations nor does she say anything to me anymore. Honestly, there's no point for me to sit there anymore haha. To be honest, I don't belong anywhere anymore. I just feel so awkward... With everyone having their own group and I'm just.. There, alone. Haha. 

Then there was this girl. Kim. We used to be friends and all but after my incident after pretending to throw the ball at her and she started crying.. (I must admit, I felt like shit then.) She's started avoiding me now. If I go close to her, she would instantly move away. If I talk to her, she would walk off. I ask her something, she would instantly say something in a harsh tone. Haha. I guess.. I'll just leave her alone then..

Yen as well. I get that I hurt her feelings during Chemistry but I apologised... But now, I feel as though she's just throwing me off again. After all the things I did to help her understand it.. When I try to help her in other things like Maths B when Hieu's having trouble explaining it.. She just goes off at me "I'm talking to Hieu." So I guess... I'm just going to solely focus on my own work huh.. No more helping Yen in Chemistry nor Maths B or anything haha. There was this one time in English where she starts asking everyone around her for a sharpener.. But she doesn't ask me. Like, she asks the two behind me. My friend next to me. The two in front of me. But she doesn't ask me. When I'm next to her. I guess she must really dislike me haha. (And yes, I did have a sharpener. Since they ended up using mine when my friend in front of me asked for one.)

And then there was Annie and Suzanne. We were like, another trio... But I guess, I'm just one of those people who get thrown aside hey? Annie and Suzanne have gotten really close and I'm just left outside the circle. Haha. I get that Suzanne probably has something against me or dislikes me in a sense because on the day for my performance night Suzanne said "I can't wait for Ben's performance! Oh and yours to Vy." Yeah... You didn't have to mention mine as a last minute thing because yes. This is what happens to me. It makes it seem as though I'm just a second option, as always. Not exactly fun having that sort of feeling continuously.

But yeah... Other than that, after Vietnamese school, I went to my cousin's house since my parents went to go fishing. But since we didn't have internet, I just started catching up on some anime really. Fairy Tail, Kamigami no Asobi, Naruto Shippuden, No Game No Life... Love Live! Hunter X Hunter... Yeahhh. Had a few to catch up on. :p After that, I started watching this girly af anime and I guess my cousin got so annoyed since he was like "VY. STAPH PLS. STAPH NO GIRLY ANIMES." HAHAHAHA. Was entertaining. :p But then yeah, I moved from his room to his sister's since she usually watched it with me and yeah. Might as well.

Got home from cousins, went onto the computer and just started talking to Davison as usual. This guy really knows how to make me smile. :p But I guess I took his lack of response to "I want to webcam with you that is" a bit harshly because I started over thinking and it hurt. A lot. "What if he doesn't want to webcam with me?" "What if I'm annoying him?" "What if I'm just pestering him?" Yeah... All these thoughts just came flooding in and it hurt. And now, I feel bad af because I'm the reason as to why he's sad. I'm the reason as to why he's upset and that just hurts even more because I can't do anything about it. Another thing is that he saw my "Good morning" message as well, but doesn't say anything about it. Haha. I guess.. I really killed his mood tonight.. Haha...