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願い: Worthiness Saturday, 16 November 2013 | 0 comment[s] Ah... Why... Is it every single month... At around this time... Something bad happens to me... September he tried ending it with me... Last month was that one nightmare that just continuously haunted me... The rest of the times... I would end up hurting him... Every single month... Haha.. I'm really... not worthy... to have a person like him.. waiting for me.. haha.. I'd summarise everything that happened today but... I really can't do it in the mood I'm in.. Haha... Constricting chest... The biggest urge... To just cry until I pass out.. I don't know anymore... I guess you can say, I just really hate... hurting people... Especially that one person whom I love so dearly. But... let's just call it an average day despite the ending haha.. Erk.. I'm just going to spend the rest of this time... moping and pretty much hating myself. Haha. Since Davison isn't going to talk to me anymore, I can't do anything to help. Thus making me feel useless like hell and hate myself. Haha. I'm just a useless person haha. Always have been, always will. P.S: I really am going to try to stop swearing now haha. A certain panda told me that I've been swearing a lot lately so yeah. Haha. I'll try to stop.. |
