Knew it. Urgh. This always happens to me. I always make things just worse. Urgh. Like last time, I wanted to get Mimi and Cindy to be friends again. But I didn’t do anything. Because I always make things worse. Just like with Davison just then. I… Tried to help him, since I didn’t want to give up on his assessment. He said he couldn’t write a proper essay, so I wanted to find out why – like the problem. But, I think I only made things worse… He seemed quite pissed and to be honest, it kind of hurt. Just to get this correct, just in case Suzanne who reads this doesn’t misinterpret it, he didn’t hurt me. I hurt myself really. Haha. Since I should’ve just shut up when I realised that I was getting him angry. Haha. And… Why do I have to think of the times when I hurt him… God damn it… In tears and I didn’t want to be like this… Especially after crying at school… Urgh..

Cried at school after stress and pressure got to me. For AMS, confusion arose and like, we tried sorting things out and for some reason. The teacher just kept on asking me the questions since I was on the laptop trying to figure out what was confusing me. That put pressure on me as well. Like, seriously. I almost went off at the teacher lololol. Almost threw my laptop onto his desk. But yeah, he told me to go outside since I closed my eyes and was breathing deeply so that I’d calm down but nope. Didn’t work. Went outside and cried. Calm downed and sat there. Teacher comes out, asked me what’s up. Yeah… I just ended up crying again. Urgh. After he left, I got pissed at myself. Why am I so god damn weak? I didn’t exactly punch, but I slammed my fist onto this metal box I was sitting beside. Haha. Good thing it was hollow. Though, the impact kind of hurt my ears. Haha. I hated myself so much right there. Good thing the classroom windows were shut otherwise they would’ve heard it. Haha. When I got my laptop back, and I opened it. I saw a message from who I assume is from Thao, apologising to me. She did nothing though… Haha.

Yeah… Hating myself right now. I’m just… Gonna go back to my music assignment.. :/

“Challenges are what make life interesting and overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.” - Joshua J. Marine

Knew it. Urgh. This always happens to me. I always make things just worse. Urgh. Like last time, I wanted to get Mimi and Cindy to be friends again. But I didn’t do anything. Because I always make things worse. Just like with Davison just then. I… Tried to help him, since I didn’t want to give up on his assessment. He said he couldn’t write a proper essay, so I wanted to find out why – like the problem. But, I think I only made things worse… He seemed quite pissed and to be honest, it kind of hurt. Just to get this correct, just in case Suzanne who reads this doesn’t misinterpret it, he didn’t hurt me. I hurt myself really. Haha. Since I should’ve just shut up when I realised that I was getting him angry. Haha. And… Why do I have to think of the times when I hurt him… God damn it… In tears and I didn’t want to be like this… Especially after crying at school… Urgh..

Cried at school after stress and pressure got to me. For AMS, confusion arose and like, we tried sorting things out and for some reason. The teacher just kept on asking me the questions since I was on the laptop trying to figure out what was confusing me. That put pressure on me as well. Like, seriously. I almost went off at the teacher lololol. Almost threw my laptop onto his desk. But yeah, he told me to go outside since I closed my eyes and was breathing deeply so that I’d calm down but nope. Didn’t work. Went outside and cried. Calm downed and sat there. Teacher comes out, asked me what’s up. Yeah… I just ended up crying again. Urgh. After he left, I got pissed at myself. Why am I so god damn weak? I didn’t exactly punch, but I slammed my fist onto this metal box I was sitting beside. Haha. Good thing it was hollow. Though, the impact kind of hurt my ears. Haha. I hated myself so much right there. Good thing the classroom windows were shut otherwise they would’ve heard it. Haha. When I got my laptop back, and I opened it. I saw a message from who I assume is from Thao, apologising to me. She did nothing though… Haha.

Yeah… Hating myself right now. I’m just… Gonna go back to my music assignment.. :/

“Challenges are what make life interesting and overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.” - Joshua J. Marine