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冬: Realisation Sunday, 25 August 2013 | 0 comment[s] Well... I just realised something... And now I'm pretty much suffering and have one of the biggest to just... cry. In exactly one week, that day would've been my sixth month with Davison. I literally... teared up. Had to lie to my siblings that I did something to my nose and that was why it was red and I was tearing. Haha. I had to blink, so many times, and when the tears stopped leaking... I had to wipe them away. Typing this right now... I'm starting to tear up again. Haha. Urgh, I still.. Can't accept that fact that it's been almost a month since we've broken up... I just... Want to reverse time... I can't stand it. Sometimes I wonder, do I really deserve to have someone like him? Since after all, he's willing to wait two years for me. Even though he's telling me that it doesn't matter since he's mine.. It's just that, I want him to be happy. I want to show him, how much he means to me, how much I care about him, how much I miss him, basically how much I love him. Hehe, I just really want to be there with him right now. Welp, nothing else really happened. Went temple and saw a couple of friends. I was with one of them and she said that she didn't know me. QQ So sad. But then again, I was with her when she was talking to her mum so yeah. Haha. Meh. Been trying to fix my relationship with my parents... Not exactly working. Haha, they don't trust me.. Sighhhh. Probably not going to work but yeah. Oh wells. "Everything has beauty, but not everyone can see." - Confucius |
