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冬 : First Saturday, 17 August 2013 | 0 comment[s] For the first time ever... Davison and I... We actually didn't talk at all. :/ Just two replies, one saying that he had to go, and another telling me that he won't be coming home. Since he's at a party at the moment and all, haha. I really am just so clingy and attached to him... :/ Well then, I'm just going to be one hell of a lonely child. Sigh. I really do miss his presence... Just then, I got lectured by my mum... Who thinks we're still together... WHY CAN'T SHE JUST UNDERSTAND, THAT WE FREAKING BROKE UP. She doesn't know I'm suffering here, that I'm trying so hard not to cry. To break down. I know it's reality, but I just feel so... so... Dull.. I pretty much just drowned out my misery watching Naruto Shippuden, tried to get my mind off things by being an idiot both at school and home, and when I'm out as well. Like just earlier, when I went to a party. Tried to take my mind off things by playing around with siblings and some other kids (who I don't know) but once I step into the house, I see a couple cuddling each other on the couch. Yeah, Davison instantly popped back into my mind. There was also that instant where my sister asked me about my necklace, the one where he had the other half. I can't help, but think of Davison all the time. And then there's my mum. Thinks I go online in the middle of the night to talk to him when I can't since she takes the modem away. She thinks that's the reason why I've been having bags. The reason why I look like a panda. She still thinks I'm a kid... "You're still young so talk the way you're supposed to." She thinks that I take my aunt's phone to talk to him... I've only done that several times before, just for one text but I don't take it for the whole night. Especially because she has a pin now so yeah... Sigh... Let me just... add that onto my list of suffering.. Well, as I was saying about that party thing. Yeah.. I was mucking around with the little kids, who I don't even know. Haha. It was quite fun to be honest in a way. Haha. Was doing random crap with siblings, and there was this little kid who was following me. Haha. But then, little brother got sooky and then all this crap happened afterwards. Haha. Like, I took his beanie to play around and then he got all upset and all, so when I went back, little brother started punching me and kicking me. I stopped him from punching me by grabbing his hands but then he started kicking me. Haha. In front of all these guests as well. Then he tried picking a fight with my little sister and such, then he started crying. Went outside the gates and all and started walking around the streets. I had to follow him, even though it was starting to rain. And especially how I'm sick to. Gawd damn it. Yeah, my ulcer's starting to annoy me so much right now. Also trying to past time by watching Naruto. Haha. Gosh Naruto's slow, just like the me. Something Davison would understand. Hehe. Alright, back to watching Naruto. "There is only one way to avoid criticism: do nothing, say nothing, and be nothing." - Aristotle |
