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â‚° Day Nineteen [II] Monday, 25 February 2013 | 0 comment[s] Rain rain go away, please go come back another day. And because like. Fuck. I got my work experience form signed and all.... Only to lose it. Fuck. Like. Seriously? They'll think I'm forgetful/clumsy already. Argh! This is really frustrating because I'm going to have to come back tomorrow and get it signed again.... AISH! This is really bothersome.... If only I hadn't left it at the freaking shops. URGH. Kill me now. :'( Well, getting lectured and threatened again for trying to be social... Online. I swear. My mum just hates me altogether. If she hates me that much why doesn't she just fucking abandoned me huh?! Yes, I know I made a promise or a goal to not cry at the beginning of the year but I already broke it. And I swear, if her lectures and continuous threatens continue... One day, after school, I'm going to run away. I don't care. She knows nothing of my life. If she wants, I'll just stop talking altogether then. Ill just ignore everyone who talks to me. Don't you know how lonely it is to not being able to go out? Do you know how frustrating it is to see your friends have fun? Do you know how saddening it is to see everyone else having fun and you're not? Do you know how much it hurts, to watch everyone enjoying their life, while you're just a doll being controlled by invisible strings? Do you know how much, I have to suffer every single day, fighting all of this pain, facing your anger, your disappointments, your frustration, your threats, every single day? You probably don't, because you're the one doing this to me! Do you know how unfair it is, treating me as though I'm just the slave, doing the thing you expect me to, while my siblings get more freedom then me?! Alright, I'm done. I'm crying. Good night. Every single year you shed, is just another painful memory. |
