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â‚° Enough Friday, 18 January 2013 | 0 comment[s] That's it. I've had enough. I've had enough of living this life. This life of a doll. This life of the experimental child. I've had enough. No more. I'm angry. Angry at my dad, for accusing me for things I don't do, for yelling at me claiming it was for my benefit when it was for his, complaining that I don't listen to him. What's the point listening to someone who's willing to disown me? Threatening me to disown me twice. Only because I didn't want to go on the treadmill. And then, I'm angry at myself. Angry at myself for having a weak mental mind. Angry at myself for breaking down so easily. And even more... Repeating the same mistakes of putting up a brave front while it killed me. I'm scared. I don't want to be alone. Help me... Someone... I want to runaway, yet I have no where to go. I want to disappear off the face of this planet, but I still have things I want to enjoy.... I want my freedom... I've had enough... Please... Before I do anything I'll regret... Help me... Cried for a full 30 minutes because of that incident. My eyes have red rims now. And I'm crying because of what I wrote. Tears... They're all what I have I guess... :\ Before I end up crying myself to sleep, well... I'm trying not to.. And I know that my oneechan is probably going to cry again because of this... Please don't cry... Please don't.. Umm... Yeah... Good night... P.S: Anthony... I'm sorry... I couldn't keep our promise. ): Pain... Is always there to strike. |
